Flashback 57
I’m tired and I want to sleep
the ringing in my ears
can’t sleep
you need to go away
the nightmare seeps back in
your words are crisp and loud
never want to hear your voice
but there they are
haunting me
consuming me
You won’t go away
can’t push you
away
it seems I’m stuck here
in my own nightmare
awake
how can one escape the horror
inside their mind
can’t physically leave
it’s a mental state
of mind
put my socks and shoes on
go outside
you’re with me
get into the car, go for a drive
you’re with me
want you out of my head
the memories
so vivid
and painful
get the fuck out of my life
you’re dead now
so many
years ago
You won’t go away
can’t push you
away
it seems I’m stuck here
in my own nightmare
awake
how can one escape the horror
inside their mind
can’t physically leave
it’s a mental state
of mind
clawing back to
reality
the fight goes on another day
some days I win
some days I die
a little more inside
crawling back to normal
what is normal
breathe and fight again
fight every day
you won’t go away
I push you
away
stuck in my nightmare
awake
try to escape
the horror
inside the mind
can’t physically leave
it’s a mental state
of mind
The dreams are worse
I cannot fight
not yet today
I’m drowning
pulling myself to shore
stand for the battle today
you won’t go away
I push you
away
stuck in my nightmare
awake
try to escape
the horror
through a door
inside my mind
can’t physically leave
it’s a mental state
of mind
The worry and fear
what if I cannot win
defeated
how do I walk away
find victory
you won’t go away
I push you away
get the fuck out
of my head
I’m awake
and I’m going to win
escape the horror
through a door
inside my mind
it’s a mental state
of mind
victory lies
on the other side
of my eyes
the waking nightmare
is not in charge
you won’t go away
so I push you away
I’m awake and can see
it’s a mental state of mind