{"id":4098,"date":"2025-02-06T02:32:32","date_gmt":"2025-02-06T02:32:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/?p=4098"},"modified":"2025-02-06T01:39:06","modified_gmt":"2025-02-06T01:39:06","slug":"my-head-is-cold-now","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/2025\/02\/06\/my-head-is-cold-now\/","title":{"rendered":"My head is cold now"},"content":{"rendered":"
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I am a big doofus who always forgets to smile. I hate selfies, but my head is warm.<\/p><\/div>\n

As I pushed the door open to exit Great Clips, a wave of cold bashed me upside the head. It felt like a giant ice cube had immediately enveloped my head. \u201cShit,\u201d I said. \u201cI forgot my damn hat.\u201d<\/p>\n

It\u2019s easy to forget how much your hair can protect your head. I have never had long hair, but what little I did have kept me warm. It was noticeable as soon as I walked outside.<\/p>\n

I do stupid things all the time and I\u2019m about to embark on a really big, stupid thing. I hope this post goes out to everyone as I expect. I\u2019m trying to schedule some posts ahead as I find new ways to find workarounds to my trauma, PTSD, and triggers.<\/p>\n

Sometimes, I forget to post the things I\u2019ve written. I can\u2019t plan out when I\u2019m going to sit and write a post because I can\u2019t plan when my trauma is going to prevent that from happening. There are days where I might finish editing two things and I want to post them. I don’t like posting more than one thing per day because I don’t want to overwhelm people. I think I will do it tomorrow, then I forget I wrote two things and only one ever gets posted.<\/p>\n

Until I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2017, I never knew what was \u201cwrong\u201d with me. I just always figured a way to be able to do my job, regardless of what the job was.<\/p>\n

When I worked at the Star-Herald, I often had stories \u201cin the bank.\u201d There were days I could write two or three stories in one day. There were other days, I couldn\u2019t get more than a sentence written. My job was to have one story a day, so if I could get a few ahead, it worked out for me and I didn\u2019t get fired. This coping skill is kind of shitty, but it worked until it didn\u2019t. <\/p>\n

By the time I left the Star-Herald, I was struggling almost every day to write my stories. This was because I was beginning to face the things that gave me PTSD, which often led to multiple days in a row where I was barely functional. You can imagine how things continued to go downhill when your editor is a giant trigger and just walking through the door to work is a huge task.<\/p>\n

Anyway, WordPress has a scheduling function. I know it works. The question is whether the email program I use to notify folks I have a new post will work with it. If it does, problem solved. If it doesn\u2019t, I will need to figure out a plan for the days when I have stories in the bank because I have a bad habit of forgetting they exist.<\/p>\n

Fingers crossed.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

As I pushed the door open to exit Great Clips, a wave of cold bashed me upside the head. It felt like a giant ice cube had immediately enveloped my head. \u201cShit,\u201d I said. \u201cI forgot my damn hat.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10],"tags":[238,405],"class_list":["post-4098","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ramblings","tag-mental-health","tag-writing"],"post_mailing_queue_ids":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4098","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4098"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4098\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4100,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4098\/revisions\/4100"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4098"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4098"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4098"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}