{"id":2872,"date":"2021-11-10T05:20:46","date_gmt":"2021-11-10T12:20:46","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.irenenorth.com\/writings\/?p=2872"},"modified":"2024-04-22T02:46:06","modified_gmt":"2024-04-22T02:46:06","slug":"altschmerz","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/2021\/11\/10\/altschmerz\/","title":{"rendered":"Altschmerz"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/11\/pexels-photo-848447-scaled.jpeg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-large wp-image-2873\" src=\"https:\/\/www.irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/11\/pexels-photo-848447-1024x683.jpeg\" alt=\"\" width=\"629\" height=\"420\" \/><\/a><!--more--><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.dictionaryofobscuresorrows.com\/post\/101336431208\/altschmerz\"><strong>Altschmerz<\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I sit alone, naked, in my room<br \/>\nWater drips off my now chilled body<br \/>\nfrom a cleansing that did not work.<\/p>\n<p>On days like these,<br \/>\nwhen I can&#8217;t stop the memories<br \/>\nI still believe<br \/>\nI can wash the terror off.<\/p>\n<p>My cheek rests upon my knee<br \/>\nBreathe in deeply,<br \/>\nexhale slowly<br \/>\nrepeat mantras of how everything will be okay.<\/p>\n<p>I get dressed and go out into the world<br \/>\nwhere people mistake my composure for ease<br \/>\nI am an expert at hiding the turmoil<br \/>\nBeneath the surface is an ocean of quivering fear.<\/p>\n<p><em>Written first week of September 2021.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[238,294,377],"class_list":["post-2872","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry","tag-mental-health","tag-ptsd","tag-trauma"],"post_mailing_queue_ids":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2872","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2872"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2872\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3602,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2872\/revisions\/3602"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2872"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2872"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2872"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}