{"id":2604,"date":"2020-07-27T05:20:18","date_gmt":"2020-07-27T11:20:18","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.irenenorth.com\/writings\/?p=2604"},"modified":"2024-04-22T02:46:08","modified_gmt":"2024-04-22T02:46:08","slug":"home","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/2020\/07\/27\/home\/","title":{"rendered":"Home"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/priscilla-du-preez-0HAIE_uZ5-0-unsplash.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/priscilla-du-preez-0HAIE_uZ5-0-unsplash.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"640\" height=\"425\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-2605\" \/><\/a><!--more--><\/p>\n<p>There is a place where I live<br \/>\nit has four walls and a roof<br \/>\nbut it doesn&#8217;t feel like home<\/p>\n<p>There is a place where I sleep<br \/>\nisolated from the world<br \/>\nbut it doesn&#8217;t feel like home<\/p>\n<p>The detritus of things I buy are here<br \/>\nalong with my hairbrush and toothbrush<br \/>\nbut it doesn&#8217;t feel like home<\/p>\n<p>loneliness and heartache live here, too<br \/>\nthey share the bittersweet memories<br \/>\nof the place in which I live<\/p>\n<p>There is a place where I store my food<br \/>\nand my cats sleep all day<br \/>\nbut it doesn&#8217;t feel like home<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes, I hide in a safe spot<br \/>\nwith my eagle blanket, my stuffed monkey,<br \/>\na pen, and a Star Wars journal<\/p>\n<p>I am semi-comfortable in this place<br \/>\ntears are sometimes shed there,<br \/>\nbut I have never felt at home<\/p>\n<p>The Mountain Goats yell out loud<br \/>\n\u201cI want to go home, but I am home\u201d<br \/>\nthere is no physical place to rest, to spin the brain down<\/p>\n<p>I just want some peace, peace from myself<br \/>\nwhere there is no yearning for mild poison<br \/>\nto numb the never-ending pain<\/p>\n<p>Is it even a physical place?<br \/>\nmaybe it&#8217;s stuffed deep inside my mind<br \/>\na place where I can be comfortable and feel at home<\/p>\n<p>This is the place where I live<br \/>\nbut it has never felt like home<br \/>\nwhere ever that may be<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[113,224,285],"class_list":["post-2604","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry","tag-depression","tag-longing","tag-poetry"],"post_mailing_queue_ids":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2604","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2604"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2604\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3648,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2604\/revisions\/3648"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2604"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2604"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2604"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}