{"id":1630,"date":"2018-10-30T18:49:07","date_gmt":"2018-10-31T00:49:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.irenenorth.com\/writings\/?p=1630"},"modified":"2024-04-22T02:46:13","modified_gmt":"2024-04-22T02:46:13","slug":"stream-of-consciousness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/2018\/10\/30\/stream-of-consciousness\/","title":{"rendered":"Stream of Consciousness"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/10\/abstract-art-artistic-1020315-cropped.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-large wp-image-1631\" src=\"https:\/\/www.irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/10\/abstract-art-artistic-1020315-cropped-1024x713.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"629\" height=\"438\" \/><\/a><!--more--><\/p>\n<p>Sometimes it&#8217;s best not to think<br \/>\nclose my mind<br \/>\nnot let it wander<br \/>\nnot let the imagination make up stories in my mind<br \/>\njust breathe<\/p>\n<p>the memories are always there<br \/>\njust on the edge of consciousness<br \/>\npushing to get in<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t always remember the dream<br \/>\nbut my body does<br \/>\nthe nervous nausea awakens me<br \/>\nthe terror<br \/>\nthe anxiety<br \/>\nreplay themselves nocturnally<\/p>\n<p>the nightmares welcomed<br \/>\nat least I know<br \/>\nwhy my body shakes so<\/p>\n<p>the horror of childhood<br \/>\nof innocence lost<br \/>\nI feel it every day<\/p>\n<p>the invisible scars<br \/>\nhave marred my life<br \/>\nthe trauma lives<br \/>\nwithin<br \/>\nthe tiny<br \/>\nfragile<br \/>\nbroken<br \/>\nchild<\/p>\n<p>words are insignificant<br \/>\nto describe the tragedy<br \/>\nthe ramification<br \/>\nof what was lost<\/p>\n<p>life<br \/>\ntumultuous<br \/>\nchaotic<br \/>\nturbulent<br \/>\nfilled with pain<\/p>\n<p>therapy<br \/>\nintense<br \/>\nit brings to light<br \/>\nwhat was taken away<br \/>\nbut also what still needs to be done<br \/>\nto carry on<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[33,238,284,285],"class_list":["post-1630","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry","tag-anxiety","tag-mental-health","tag-poem","tag-poetry"],"post_mailing_queue_ids":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1630","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1630"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1630\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3804,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1630\/revisions\/3804"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1630"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1630"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/irenenorth.com\/writings\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1630"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}